A moment to caution

If I lose steam on this, I lose steam on this.

I can't believe it's been nearly 7 months since the cops were called on me. In that time I've had to speak with attorneys, talk to judges and go through a bunch of things that I dreaded. I wish it had been true so that I could have taken the blame. But it wasn't. So here I am.

I was supposed to spend December 20th happy to have signed my son up for summer baseball. What I got was a phone call from the police and a visit to boot. I was accused of something I didn't do, with a cop who was too eager to paint me the bad guy.

I guess in a way, I have COVID-19 to thank for keeping my mind busy. If it wasn't for this virus, I'd probably have to deal with the fact that I knew a friendship was dying.

I think the thing I learned the most is that no matter what you do, you can't buy your friends. I've tried this too many times, but each time it ends with them leaching me.

My goal for 2020 was to have a beach body. If not for an awful 2019, that could have been a possibility. Now my goal for 2021 is to be happy. Find friends who I can have meaningful relationships with. Not the kind where I'm always footing the bill.

I suppose in the future it might be a good idea to use a moment of caution before making rash decisions. I think I could have used that advice last year. At least I came to the realization at some point.