Shes Gone: Part 3

The date was September 19th 2018. There I was in a meeting. Invited to go on a walk by you. Prior to that time, I only knew you from quick walks from my cubicle to yours. On that day you sent me your phone number in a work email. You asked me to text or email you back on the walk you had put together. I decided to text you back. Looking back, I wish I would never have done that.

I knew you were beautiful. Your hair, your face, and how you dressed. You know you're beautiful by the way you walk and the way you talk.

Turns out, you became close with me. Much closer than KH ever was. I wanted that. I wanted to breathe with you, I wanted to touch you and I wanted your touch back. I didn't care about our relationship status and that's probably why I'm on a blogger account sad to say goodbye. Today is January 2nd 2019. Tomorrow, on the 3rd, you'll put in your 2 week notice. I assume your last day will be January 18th 2019. You'll go on into oblivion after that.

I remember when KH put in her notice. I was heart broken. Those 2 weeks flew by so quickly. Before I knew it, I was watching her take her dog and all of her belongings out the door. A week later I followed her instagram post as she moved out of Colorado and put finality to me never seeing her again.

So here I am with you, Kayla. Your beautiful smile, the way your lower teeth poke into your lip. Your hair, your vibes, and your beauty. Sadly, it's going away too.

Can you answer something for me? Would you have ever gone on a date with me? If the settings were different?

I'm hurt. This one hurts a lot. What's funny is that the song for KH was "What hurts the most". That was on the last day of her employment. That was it.

What hurts the most about Kayla is that I have so much to say, and I'm going to watch you walk away. Unlike KH, we had a friendship. I say had because it's based off of talking to each other at work. I say had because in 2 months, you'll be a distant memory. No longer will my phone ever ask if you want to go get coffee. Hell, I'll probably stop drinking starbucks. No longer will I have nice long walks with you. I was really looking forward to walking with you in the summer. This hurts.

So Kayla, I say goodbye to you. I say goodbye to everything you brought me. I wish I would never have texted you or pretended to get along with you. Now we are friends and that friendship is going to die.

There is a part of me that finds peace in your departure though. I never knew you as KL. I knew you as KP. That's where our relationship was. That's where it will stay. I honestly hope we see each other again.

Times I'll never forget:
Our walk where you told me you lost your ability to look at our companies boing payroll.
I'll never forget the time we went on a walk and as we were coming up the stairs you said "Because you're not a social person" as a joke.
The first time when you, Priscilla and I went to Tokyo Joes and you showed me what a Bento Box was.
The time we walked to office max and you had your hair braided.
I'll definitely never forget the first time I talked with you at your desk. You wore a low cut v neck and I could see straight down your breasts.
I'm never going to forget the time you playfully pushed me in my cubicle.
I'm never going to forget the time I hugged you after the nuggets game in the Safeway parking lot.

But I sure do hope I forget our goodbye. Because baby, she's gone.