Why, please tell me

One cold day in December, I was sitting at my Paulaner work desk when KH came down and said she left her notice. I was shocked. So was Teresa. Then she went on vacation and came back with 4 days left. Her last day she brought her dog in. She left with her belongings and her dog. I never talked to her again.

On another cold day in December, I was walking on the 2nd floor walkway when I saw KP get her first phone screen. Her hair was in a bun. She was so excited to talk to the screener.

I don't want this to be true. I don't want this to happen again.

Unfortunately it is happening, and unfortunately I'm experiencing this all again.

I don't want to experience losing a close friend. Who can ever replace Kayla? Who?

I'm lost over a girl that I cannot have. I'm lost over a girl who's moved on and will likely never talk to me again.


So why, please tell me why can't I just forget about her. Why does she have to live in my head?

If I knew the answers, and the things that made these questions tick then I could leave in peace. I deserve that much.